Thursday, March 8, 2012


Hi's me.  Just checking in.

It's been so very crazy at work and I haven't had a moment to read most posts, let alone write one.

So here's what I've been thinking about lately:  Baby #2.  Or, rather, NOT Baby #2. 

It seems like SO MANY people are pregnant again!  And if they aren't already pregnant with #2, they're trying.  I definitely feel in the minority here.  But the question here really is whether or not I don't want another one or if the fact that it's highly (HIGHLY) unlikely that I'll get another one, am I telling myself I don't want one?  I think I really don't want another one.  I know that might change over time, but life is just too perfect and easy right now.  What if #2 is fussy and cranky and awful?  What if #2 has special needs that are so involved that it takes away from Sofia?  What if #2 makes me lose my mind?  What if #2 makes us have to file for bankruptcy because we will be SO BROKE!?  What if, what if, what if....

So don't have one.  Done.

But here's the problem:  It's those frozen embryos.  What do we do with them?  I can't throw them out.  I feel like I need to try.  But it's crazy to try if we don't really want another one, right?  That's why we're giving it time to see how we feel next year.  I just don't know what we'll do.  There's only 2 and they are staying frozen until we figure this out.

In Sofia news, life is great.  She is perfect and wonderful and I love her more every single day.  She is such a big girl and I can't believe how we are actually having conversations now.  Even though she doesn't have a ton of words, she nods and gets excited and we talk all day long!  She knows exactly what we're saying and responds appropriately or follows directions.  She's a genius.  =)  Just kidding...not really.