Sorry for yesterday... I was a mess. Perhaps it was Blue Monday (the Monday before my period has always been a problem for me). To be honest, I've lost track of my periods. Is it awful to say that I want to become menopausal? I know the process can be a train wreck, but I'm ready to not worry about these things anymore.
I talked out my issues from Mother's Day with a colleague and realized some things and got my perspective back together. A good friend pointed out that many new moms (especially where I grew up) have a huge support system to include their moms, aunts, siblings, cousins, etc. If I lived at home, I'd have that. He pointed out that I have no one except my husband, so I am doing a lot. Great point. I love him (my wise friend).
Yesterday I discovered my first gray hair!! I realize that getting to 37 without experiencing this yet is pretty good, so I'm not complaining, but I kinda liked not having to worry about that. Not that I'm worried yet - and let's be honest, I haven't not-dyed my hair ever in my life, so covering the suckers won't be a problem.
Today I went to the Dr. Did you know that my pesky liver is still giving me trouble? Yep, those enzymes are still high. He is fairly sure that it is due to "fatty liver" (such an attractive sounds ailment) and that losing weight will help. He actually prescribed me to lose 20 pounds. This is the first time that a doctor has actually told me to lose weight. I hope I take it seriously and do it. I'm using the Lose It app on my phone. Russ has been using it for a while and he's lost 18 pounds (well, la-di-da for him, right? =) Why is it so easy for him? ugh...). And I know that losing weight will help hold off diabetes too. Not too mention that I'll become a hot mom which is what I've always wanted to be! =) (sort of..I mean it can't be a bad thing, right?)
Now on to Sofia world. Baby girl is BUSY! All of the sudden, she is all over the place and won't sit still. She is having so much fun!!! She is pulling up like crazy and I'm sure she will walk waaaay before we're ready for her to. Have I mentioned she's wearing mostly 18 month clothes? They are roomy, but I can't stand when her stuff gets small. No offense to other moms/babies out there, but I just think in general people put babies in clothes that are too small. Things generally look nicer when there's room to move. Also, not sure if I've mentioned this before, but we've transitioned to jammies! No more sleepers for our girl. She's in real pajamas and I love it! They're so cute! My friend told me that she preferred PJs over sleepers and I didn't get it, but now I do too. Only issue is cold feet, but since she sleeps with Russ, it's not big deal. If she were on her own in the crib, I'm not sure what I do about it. We haven't had to use her wearable blanket yet, but maybe that's what we'd do.
We're transitioning her formula from all Nutramigen ($33) a can (we go through almost 3 can a week) to generic brand Gentle Ease ($15 a can!!). Let's hope she tolerates it well. Today she got 1/4 Gentle Ease....
In food news, she's eating lots of different things, but not much table food yet. I need to try and give her more stuff, but I get worried that she'll choke even though I give her the smallest possible pieces. She makes the best faces when she tries new things! You'd think we're giving her poison. But then she ends up eating it and loving it. She still has NO TEETH!
In one week, she'll be 9 months old!!!! And she'll have her 9 month check up on the 17th as well... It's been so long since we've been to the pediatrician, so I'm looking forward to that.
Lastly, next week Russ is out of town for 4 nights next week. I'm nervous. My friend is coming to stay with us because I have anxiety. I know, I'm crazy. I just worry that I'll be dead tired and she'll have a fit and I won't be able to handle it because I'm so tired. I know we'll be fine........... =)