Just like they say, nothing really prepares you for becoming a parent. I read EVERYTHING I could get my hands on. I know about development, sleep schedules, feeding, and anything else you can think of. I thought I knew it all and was prepared for anything parenthood threw at us. We braced ourselves for our life to change. We knew it would be a ton of work. We knew we wouldn't be sleeping. We knew that getting out of the house would become a chore. We knew that our time would never be just ours every again. We were prepared for that.
What we weren't prepared for was how joyful every single moment would be. When we spend an hour rocking her to sleep, put her down in her crib and sit down to dinner only to find her stirring because her pacifier fell out, it is with joy that I go into her room and replace it and/or spend 20 minutes settling her back down. I have never, not once, huffed or puffed about having to do anything for her. When she has poop up to her NECK, I giggle and wonder how in the world that happened. When I get her all dressed up, tights on, bundled up and out the door only to hear the "squish, squish, squirt!" of a dirty diaper, I happily turn around and undo everything for a diaper change. And love that I get more changing table time (she's especially sweet and playful at diaper change time and we sing songs and smile and laugh). And the traditionally fun times? Like morning wake up, baths, and general playtime? Forget about it - it's better than Disney World.
I did not expect this part of the deal. I thought I'd be at work every day complaining about how exhausted I am. When i went back to work, people asked if I was upset about leaving her. While I'd love to be home with her, I can't help but smile ALL DAMN DAY because I get to go home to the sweetest thing ever created. People comment on how content and happy I am now. I'm not a new mom mess, all disheveled and covered in spit up. My life has been nothing but enhanced in every single way. I was not expecting all that.
This mommy thing? It's good. It's real good. And my heart is full of prayers for all of you mommies-to-be who haven't had their miracle yet. It's coming. Keep the faith that you'll get the privilege of experiencing this too.