How did I live without my blog for so long? Maybe I'm just excited to be back and once the freshness wears out, I'll feel differently, but right now I am just loving being back in my bloggy world!
Coming home after spending the holidays at home (Buffalo home, childhood home) is always hard. I start fantasizing about what life would be like if we lived close to my family. It breaks my heart to watch my mom say goodbye to Sofia. I start thinking about how my mom could see her almost every day and the happiness that it would bring her. I feel that it is so important for Sofia to grow up close to family, but then I wonder if it is worth the cost to us both literally ($$, jobs are scarce there) and figuratively (Russ does not want to live there for various reasons: weather, opportunities, lack of diversity, and more). We love our life, though, and I can't imagine how it could get any better. Maybe if they moved here? Which will never happen. It's hard.
Here's what I fear: We move back and their (my family's) world does not stop for us and we don't see them as much as I think we would. The amount of quality time Sofia spends with my mom now is huge. On visits, they are spending 24/7 together. If we lived there, it might be a 6 hours per week? More or less sometimes? It would just be more regular time. The weeks/months apart is really hard.
So my is coming to visit in 2 weeks for my birthday. Very exciting. I'm trying to figure out what fun things we can do. My birthday falls on a Saturday so I want to do something all day with Sofia, my mom, and Russ. I'm a little obsessed with figuring out where I want to eat. Sofia does very well in restaurants so anything is a possibility. I haven't been with my mom for my birthday in years, so I'm happy.
When you guys are writing your blog, does the fact that this is a permanent record that your family (spouses, kids, siblings, possibly parents, friends) will someday read? This thought inhibits what I write. All the time. (strangely enough, I have no problem with these people reading about my personal stuff *think aggressive wiper post*. It's my feelings towards certain people that I don't want down on record. It would most likely just be venting, but I'd hate for one day anyone thinking I didn't love them because I vented about them in a blog once. Hmm...