So technically I'm "in my 12th week" right? On Thursday, 12 weeks will be complete. I've also had 4 excellent ultrasounds and everything looks great. Why am I pondering this? Because I REALLY REALLY want to start shopping!!! Not purchasing, but I want to start the preliminary looking around. (for real this time) (and not just on-line which I have been doing for years) In my mind I told myself that we wouldn't go to the big baby store (we have a Babys R Us and a Buy Buy Baby - I want to go to Buy Buy Baby because they have every single stroller you can imagine on display; everything from a Gracco $129 to a $900 Bill and Teds - I am determined to learn the differences) until we were through the first trimester. So I think it's a little early, but I want to go TODAY. Or tomorrow. It would be fun to celebrate Valentines Day there...
Anyway, I have to consider the fact that while I see the light, I am indeed not out of the woods yet. If the worst happens, would having gone to the store make it any worse? Maybe, but at that point isn't it just the absolute worst thing ever anyway? Doesn't my joy now offset the pain then? I think so!! Plus I need to be like all these other fabulous IF PG women (is there a real acronym for that? For those of us that have won the struggle? We need one...) who are embracing their pregnancies and thinking nothing but positive positive positive. But it's ME and I need to always be prepared for anything. And I am trying. And doing fairly well. Buy Buy Baby is the last frontier. And I really, really want to go.
Did I mention I have a horrendous cold? Sucks. I know that if I took Sudafed my world would change, but I'm not. The paper (from what seems like 1990) my doctor gave me said it was fine, but my babycenter newsletter said it was a no no. I can survive (and have been off on snow days for over a week!), but I sure feel crappy.