How did I ever go to Target before we were blessed with this pregnancy? I remember feeling like it was a nightmare, but man, it had to be hard! There are NOTHING BUT PREGNANT LADIES THERE! And I find myself feeling somewhat inferior. Maybe because I'm not showing like I want to or maybe because there's a carefree attitude that they have that tells me they are clueless about the IF struggle. Whatever it is, I feel intimidated by them - and there's an army of them there! I'm not going to say that they're arrogant, but it is the vibe I'm projecting onto them. That's my issue, though, I'm sure. My advice to my IF sisters out there still in the midst of the journey, STAY AWAY FROM TARGET.
I'm not eating as healthy as I should. I'm not eating a ton of food (so not going crazy with the "eating for 2" myth) and in fact aren't even that hungry...but when I do eat, I know I should be making better choices. Like, ummmm, vegetables maybe? I suck. And I'm so surprised that I'm not doing better...I would have thought I'd kick ass in the eating well for the baby part of this. What a fantasy that was.
Lastly, I'm thinking about going with natural childbirth. I'm somewhat a control freak (still - IF taught me a lot about my control issues, but they are still back there) and the idea of not being able to feel anything below my waist makes me feel very anxious. I can handle pain (I think)...but of course I'm scared that it'll be the worst experience ever. But how bad can it be when you get to meet the baby at the end of it? I'm just not sure...