Monday, March 22, 2010

A decrease in the crazies


OK, so it's been almost 2 weeks since my last HB monitor and I have 2 more weeks to go. 

And I am surviving.

Funny how a growing belly will help convince you that there may actually be a person living and growing inside of you. 

It's sinking in that this is really happening.  My mom cried on the phone the other day when I reminded her I was 16 weeks, not 14 like she thought.  She said "You're pregnant!"  as if it was the first time she heard.  I couldn't help but laugh - it's how we're all feeling. 

I was comforted to learn from my Baby Center weekly newsletter that at 16 weeks I'm on the cusp of a major growth spurt.  That will be reassuring to experience.

Am I still going crazy over-analyzing every little twinge that I feel?  Yep.  Inspecting the toilet paper?  Yep.  Thinking that there's no way the baby could be in there anymore?  Uh huh.  But it's getting better.

I'm hoping that as I become more secure with this pregnancy, I may even become available to others in my life.  For the past few months, I've been what I call "distracted".  Some might call it self-centered.  Basically all I can think about is baby stuff - both happy and scary.  I'm sure friends have noticed that I'm either talking baby or saying nothing at all.  Now in a crisis situation, I think I'm still all there, but the day to day stuff...I'm in my own little baby world...


  1. I totally empathize with being in your own world. I've got just enough energy to focus on this pregnancy and nothing else. I'm not good at returning phone calls or getting together with friends. I forget what's going on in my friend's lives. Maybe someday I'll reconnect...

  2. I can totally relate even though I am not nearly as far along!! Can't wait to see some pics of your growing bump!!! Have you felt any movement yet??

  3. Hang in there...waiting for the next appointment is torture!!! I PROMISE as soon as you feel frequent movement the fear lifts considerably!!! Not much longer!! XOX

    Oh, and ALL I talk about is baby....we've waited forever for it up!! B-A-B-Y!!!!! :)

  4. Congrats on 16 weeks! I am glad you are starting to feel better/more relaxed about everything. And like Cilla said, talk all you want about your baby -- you waited a long time and have every right! =)