Cycle 5, here we come!

And cycle 5 is officially started...

I go to my first monitoring appt tomorrow.  Assuming my levels are OK, we'll start injections tomorrow night.  I'll be doing the same protocol as last time (Gonal -F 300 AM, 150 PM and Menopur 150 PM with Ganirelix down the line as I get closer to retrieval). 

It's cool that mom is in town and can come with me to the appt - not that it's exciting or anything, but she's never been to Shady Grove.

I'm so very convinced that this cycle won't work that I then get myself thinking that since I'm so sure it won't work, it will work and then I'm right back to where I always am - one big messed up head of conflicting thoughts!  Oh well.  At least we get a cycle 5, right?  What will be will be and there's not much I can do about it.

My goal for this round is to not think about it.  Wish me luck.  What I mean is that I don't want to over-analyze (or analyze at all) anything that's happening.  Maybe we'll only have 6 eggs this time - or maybe we'll have 20.  Whatever.  It doesn't matter - if they're our kids, they'll come this time and that's all there is to it.

Yeah, right.  Watch me not think.  That'll be a first.