Still crying everyday and that seems excessive. Went out for my great Sangria bash last night and had to leave the table for fear of blubbering all over everyone. I just wanted to go home. But then it got much much better... I don't get why this is so hard this time. Don't get me wrong - I'm not sitting around all day crying - just a little here and there. But I should be past this by now. Hormones. I know.
I keep forgetting that the cycle is over. I was at a football game at my school Friday night and kids were running around and I kept protecting myself from getting pushed and bumped. I feel like it's all still in there and I need to be careful. Yes, i feel insane.
How many pregnant ladies were there in Target yesterday? Four. And they're sooooooo arrogant. =) Walking around with their big bellies. Remember when maternity wear used to be all big and unattractive? You sometimes didn't know if someone ws pregnant or just a heavy person? Not now. Now they all walk around with their little balls in front of them. Look at me! I have a person growing in me. Show-offs. I see them and fantasize that they went through treatments too so that I can be happy for them. I feel like if they had to work at it, maybe they appreciate it more. Unlike my co-worker who is 9 months and ready to pop and sighs and complains all day. Poor thing. I feel sooooo sad for you and the baby you'll meet likely this week. Not. It's not that I'm unhappy for those who conceive naturally, it's just that I don't think those women have a clue. They take it for granted and don't realize how lucky they are. Hopefully they have a friend like me and can realize how blessed they are to not be in my shoes.
Yeah, so I guess I'm having a down day. Sorry. I just feel so sad.