Tuesday, September 1, 2009

If only I could stop thinking...

Went to the doctor today...as expected all is good (OK, maybe I had fears that it would be bad news and I obsessed a little about what they would say, but...I guess I already knew that it was all good). She said that the last cycle looked great. 100% fertilization rate is excellent. I was worried that I only had 8 eggs, but she thinks that's fine. The big news? She wants to put 3 back next time! I'm SUPER excited about it!!! I really wanted 3 last time and I'm glad she's coming around. It does make me worried though that she thinks something is wrong with me and so she wants to put 3 because she' sure 2 won't do the trick (if only I could stop thinking, I'd be far better off).

We can't start until next month, assuming that insurance goes well. The cycle should be approved, but I'm not sure about the meds yet. They were optimistic about it so I guess I am too.

Are blogs the most narcissistic things ever? To think that I'm writing something that I have the audacity to think others would want to read about? Here I am! Pay attention to ME!!! That sounds about right actually now that I think about it. I can definitely be a bit attention-seeking in my behavior. That must be annoying to others.

Seriously, it's really just that all I want to do is read about people going through IVF and I can't find what I'm looking for so maybe someone will find this and find it helpful. I could talk about it all day. Thank God I have a friend who going through similar things. She's doing IUI but other than the procedures, it's all the same. She's starting her IUI cycle this week. It'll work this time.

So it'll be a month or so before we start the cycle. I guess that's a good thing. I can take time to get healthy again. I need to get off caffeine and artificial sweetener. Only need a week for that. Maybe I'm disappointed that we can't start right away. Stupid insurance.


  1. I don't think it's narcissistic (why use such big words?!!). I am totally reading it and am not going through the same things you are. If I was, I would totally be glad someone else had the same concerns/issues and I had somewhere to go. It's totally a good thing!

  2. Thanks, Tracey!:)

  3. I am so grateful to have found your blog. I am 42 yrs old, a 6.5 yr old daughter after years of infertility (gave up and went on vacation - hate that it worked that way because of course I think it is all my fault this time around for not being able to get relaxed etc), 1 IUI, 2 failed IVF, on the verge of #3 IVF... I started from the beginning, I want your whole story, and so far reading your blog I am feeling a sense of gratitude for your honesty and detail. thank you.

  4. It's 2014 and I'm glad I found your blog. Just sayin'