Thursday, January 14, 2010

7 weeks

So it's still early, but then I think to myself that it's almost 2 months and 2 months sounds like a long time.  And then I realize that the mind tricks are starting again...Wednesday we have ultrasound #2 and it can't get here fast enough.  Then I have an appt with my OB on Feb. 4.

My mother (who is normally not annoying at all, I swear!) is making me second guess my doctors, our hospital and even the prenatal vitamins I'm taking. She said "Are you sure your doctor is the best?  Have you researched them?  What about the hospital?  You take over the counter prenatals?  Oh."  She works for an OB/Gyn and has much knowledge...  And then the kicker was when we were discussing miscarriage rates at this stage in an attempt to both ease our minds and not get too excited since it's still so early.  She actually asked me if the miscarriage rate at 6 weeks was.. "what?  50/50?"  MOM!  No.  Of course at the time I had no figures in my head but knew that it is not 50%! So then I looked it up and its 5%.  So perhaps she doesn't have as much knowledge as I thought.  I just don't get why at this time I'm seeing this side of her that is making me feel so insecure!  I know it's all coming out of love and concern, but I've never had this issue before.  Do you know she still makes me feel bad about not getting my first beta up in Buffalo over winter break?  "Too bad we could have celebrated together..."  This whole thing is bringing out the worst in her and I'm afraid it might get even worse.  And I'm hesitant to even type it and put this thought concretely out in the world, but it almost makes me glad that I live far away.  But I know that no matter how these little annoyances bother me, the joy we would get about having her close would far surpass it.  (See how I had to recover really quickly there?  I have a fear that I'll die and then this blog will be out there for the whole world to see, and it could be viewed as my final thoughts and then my mom will read this and it will haunt her forever.  What?  You didn't know I was certifiably crazy?  Oh.  I thought I made that evident months ago.)  And PLEASE, no one comment about how my mom needs to mind her business.  I just had to vent about it, but I'll fight to the death if anyone else says something negative about her!  =)  (come on, you know how that goes...)

So at this moment I'm rather nauseous.  Yay!  Not that I want to puke my guts up, but puking in general would be quite comforting.  I was woken up again last night with cramps and nausea.  These little things help confirm that there is life in there doing it's thing.


  1. It's great to be nauseous, but then again, that sounds mean, doesn't it? ;)

    I think that it is hard for everyone in this stressful process and you see all kinds of emotions pouring out- good and bad. I'm sure Grandma is just so excited and wants everything to be just right for her little baby. And I know you already know that, too. But I know what you mean re. living away b/c it seemed that any little comment at all about anything to do with pregnancy, miscarriage, how much weight I gained, whether or not I'd breastfeed, yadda yadda yadda just ticked me off. So, luckily you have this blog to be able to vent it all out!

    BTW... what is your due date? ;)

  2. gotta love them, even when you want to strangle them. But they do it out of love. My mother drives me crazy with all her complaining and criticism, but I know it's her way of showing that she cares.

    Good luck with the second ultrasound!

  3. That's what mom's are for! Congrats on hitting 7 weeks!!!!

  4. Yay for 7 weeks!

    As for your mom, I think that a lot of moms can get that way when their daughters are pregnant. They just want everything to be perfect for their daughter and their grandbaby. You're the most important thing in the world to her, so she just wants the best for you (even if it drives you nuts in the process!). =)

  5. WOO HOO!! SEVEN WEEKS!!!! That's wonderful!!

    Moms will be moms. My mom told me that she couldn't see the face in our 10 wk u/s and to her our baby looked more like a MOLE in a den!!! What does that even mean??....thanks, Mom!! HAHA. Gotta love 'em no matter what they say...

    Take good care of yourself!!! xx

  6. Congrats on reaching your 7 week milestone.....howcome this seems to be flying by so fast?! Maybe not for you....but from an outside perspective, it seems like just yesterday you announced your BFP. Wow!