ONE Heartbeat!

6w4d

OK, now I get it.

We actually saw the little guy!!!  This is very real.  Everything looks GREAT!!  The babies heartbeat was 113 and I have no idea what that means, but she said it was strong. 

When she first went in she did a lot of poking but didn't really say anything and then, sort of under her breath, I heard "there's the sac..." and then FINALLY she says everything looks good and there's a heartbeat!  I sobbed and sobbed and sobbed.  THAT'S WHAT I'D BEEN WAITING FOR!  I hadn't even cried yet and that's so unlike me.  But here we were and it suddenly has all become real.  We made a baby!!!  I was crying so hard and shaking that she couldn't get the measurements right until I calmed down.  (Cause I was trying to do that quiet cry thing where all I do is shake and sob and try not to sound like a dumb ass)

Dr. Browne just hugged and us and was beaming and then Farrah was too... I only go back there one more time and that makes me sad.  I'll go on 1/20 for another ultrasound and then they release me.  I have to make an OB appt for 3-4 weeks from now.  I really wish I could stay with them - we've been through so much.

Also right then and there they gave me an H1N1 shot.  I wasn't expecting that!  They were surprised that I didn't already have a regular flu shot and advised me to get one.

We are so happy and relieved.  We're finally exciting and believing that it's really happening.  I hope this feeling lasts!!