Monday, January 11, 2010

ONE Heartbeat!


OK, now I get it.

We actually saw the little guy!!!  This is very real.  Everything looks GREAT!!  The babies heartbeat was 113 and I have no idea what that means, but she said it was strong. 

When she first went in she did a lot of poking but didn't really say anything and then, sort of under her breath, I heard "there's the sac..." and then FINALLY she says everything looks good and there's a heartbeat!  I sobbed and sobbed and sobbed.  THAT'S WHAT I'D BEEN WAITING FOR!  I hadn't even cried yet and that's so unlike me.  But here we were and it suddenly has all become real.  We made a baby!!!  I was crying so hard and shaking that she couldn't get the measurements right until I calmed down.  (Cause I was trying to do that quiet cry thing where all I do is shake and sob and try not to sound like a dumb ass)

Dr. Browne just hugged and us and was beaming and then Farrah was too... I only go back there one more time and that makes me sad.  I'll go on 1/20 for another ultrasound and then they release me.  I have to make an OB appt for 3-4 weeks from now.  I really wish I could stay with them - we've been through so much.

Also right then and there they gave me an H1N1 shot.  I wasn't expecting that!  They were surprised that I didn't already have a regular flu shot and advised me to get one.

We are so happy and relieved.  We're finally exciting and believing that it's really happening.  I hope this feeling lasts!!


  1. WOOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! OMG!!!!!! THAT IS SOOOOO GREAT!!!!!!!!!! I am SO HAPPY for you Tracey!!!! Isn't it amazing when you see your little miracle for the first time!!! You're having one perfect baby!!!! WONDERFUL!!! Did they send you home with a picture??? Hope so and that you can post it!!!

    Congratulations, Mama!!!!! Beyond thrilled for you!!!! :)

  2. Awwwww, I'm tearing up right with you!

    Yes, do post a picture, if you have it!

  3. What a great milestone. Looking forward to hearing about many more milestones to come.


    I am so excited for you, Tracey! I got teary-eyed just imagining you crying and watching that gorgeous little heartbeat fluttering on the screen.

    You guys DID it! You have your little miracle growing inside you and I am ecstatic for you!


  5. hip hip hooooooooooooooraaaaaayyyyyy!!! When are you posting the photo-- did you get one today? This is such GREAT news! That heartbeat sounds so good!!!!

    I am so so so so so happy for you- I just knew this would be the round for you! I know what you mean by being sad to leave, but then again, you have more fun things to learn from your OB now. Do you have one picked out?

    YAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYY! Can you tell I'm excited? ;) How is Russ doing???

  6. Tracey I am so happy for you. I realize I just started following you, but non-the-less after reading about your journey, I fell like I have been here for the ride all along.

    You must be so thrilled!!!!! Enjoy it girl, you deserve it!!

  7. congrats my dear girl... that is so fantastic

  8. ((((((((((Hugs)))))))))))))))

    Squeezing you tight as I live vicariously through you. I am seriously happy that all is well and can only imagine your relief at seeing the heartbeat for the very first time.

    This IS what you've been waiting for -- relish every minute of it. You've earned it.


  9. I'm SO happy for you. That is great news! I'm going into my first IVF cycle...fingers and toes are crossed! Thanks for being great inspiration!