Here's our peanut at 7w6d
Not the best quality, but the peanut-shaped thing in the black blog is him/her! The head is pointing left. Aw...looks just me. =)
OK, so you think that after having this picture only 3 days ago and seeing that strong heartbeat, I would be feeling great! And I was! i was talking about things and really getting excited. I even read yesterday about miscarriages (on weekly baby center update) and I learned that at 8 weeks with a heartbeat detected, the likelihood if miscarriages drops significantly. I was feeling great. Then last night, I started to fill with anxiety. I felt a weird sensation in my belly - not pain at all, more like a flutter (I KNOW it wasn't the baby! But it's what I would think it would feel like - like a tickle or something) and it freaked me out for some reason. Also, I'm getting little twinges that feel like they're coming from my cervix - literally it happened maybe 3 times. Again, not pain. Just an awareness or something. I can't explain it. I keep telling myself that with all of the changes happening in my body, I am going to feel weird things! I know. But I'm scared.
So I really think that if I were rich I would buy a sono machine so that I could check in with the peanut as often as I like. But I'm not rich.
I'm sure everything is fine. It's morning and it seems that in the morning I feel the most normal and non-pregnant, whatever that means. So the fact that I feel nothing right now is exactly normal.
I need to relax. I know! It'll be fine.
OK, so my birthday was fabulous! One of my best friends broke into my office to leave me my favorite hot chocolate from Caribou! Mmmm... If you have a Caribou Coffee near you and you haven't tried the new hot chocolate, run right now to get some. It's crazy ridiculous good. Please no one remind me that there;s caffeine in chocolate, OK? It can't be that much, right? But seriously it tastes like a cup of melted chocolate. Then my love-fest team (one of the teams of teachers I work with who are the best and we constantly tell each other how great we think each other is) threw a party for me. I knew it was coming because we always celebrate birthdays big, but it was extra special. It was really nice. Their gifts were mostly baby-related (baby books and stuff) and I got all blubbery thanking them for not only the party but for being so supportive over my IVF journey. I HATE crying at work. But it's all good...
OK, back to positive thinking and realizing that we are going to meet this little peanut one soon. I'll try!