Better but worried

9w3d (yesterday's post was wrong I was 9w 2d)

So I wrote last night's post at about 5:30 after which I never saw that intense bright red again.  It then became lighter and lighter and eventually went to pink.  (let's face it, pink is simply red that's diluted, right?  So a teeny bit of red often shows up pink...it's all blood whether it's red, pink or brown)  Anyway around 7 I decided to call my RE because I had the brilliant idea that I could go to their office this morning during monitoring time to get a quick u/s.  So I call the after hours number and the on-call nurse calls me back who happened to be my nurse!  (my place is huge and probably has over 30 nurses so this was quite a coincidence)  So Farrah tells me that it sounds normal and that they can no longer see me now that I'm released from them. =(   She said that if it got worse and was accompanied by bad cramping I should call my OB.  She assured me that red spotting happens all the time and not to worry.  So I was disappointed because I really wanted her to tell me to run over today and get it checked out.

So this brings me to a few questions.  What is cramping?  Sounds stupid I know, but I'm having trouble defining it.  I've always been a super crampy girl around my period time.  I'm one of those girls who used to throw and have to curl in the fetal position for hours when day 1 hit.  Being on the pill alleviated a lot of that as I got older, but I still was crampy.  The crampiness I'm getting now - and have been getting since I was 4w3d feels exactly like I'm about to start my period, but it's not a sharp cramping pain.  It's a dull, radiating ache that goes all over my abdomen and even down my legs a little.  It's completely manageable - I haven't even thought about taking Tylenol for it.  So I guess I'm saying it's not bad at all and they keep telling me it's normal because I'm feeling my uterus expanding.  And it makes sense to me that if I feel that way when a little lining sheds each month, I certainly should feel that way while life is growing in there bigger and bigger each day.

I have to say that yesterday i felt crampy more often that I have been, so this is what concerns me.  Yesterday I just felt a little off all day.  Usually I feel totally normal all day until late afternoon when I would be hit with some crampiness and just general blah.  It would then go away and come back in the late evening (in general).  Yesterday I was complaining that I was feel more icky than usual.  Russ told me that since I had never been "this pregnant before" I couldn't possibly know how it would feel, so it's all normal.  This comment was comforting, but then of course the spotting began...  Just to be clear, I saw bright red when I wiped only during 2 bathroom visits that were about 20 minutes apart.  It never was enough to leak out onto my pad or anything.  So it's not a lot at all.  Just enough to make me freak out though.

OK, so now what?  Do I wait until Thursday to see my OB?  That will be tough.  I guess I'll see what today brings and decide.  I think that minimally I'll call in the morning and let them decide if they need to see me sooner.

Thanks to everyone who gave me enouraging words last night!!!!!!