Tuesday, December 29, 2009

At long last...

We have a winner!  My hcg is 375 at 14dp5dt.

I'm in a complete state of shock and feel silly writing this because my mind is telling me there is no way this real, so why am I telling all these people about it? 

We let the call go to voicemail and listened to it on speaker together.  Farrah, my nurse, was all excited to tell us that the test was positive and that I should now drop back to 2 endometrum a day and keep with the estrace twice a day and I go back Thursday for another beta.

Whoa.  This is really weird.  I'm not excited, not anxious.  Just relieved if anything.  It definitely has not hit me that this is real and we might actually have a baby (and as I wrote that - "baby" - I was hesitant that I might jinx the whole thing by putting it into words).  I can't believe it might be our turn finally.  I feel so very strange. 

Physically i feel very nauseous but I think that's just from the waiting all morning and the news.  It's more heartburn than queasy I think.  Other than that I feel nothing, which is normal.  Although, i swear I feel something in there doing it's thing.  Like a heaviness in my belly.  (Of course i felt that same thing last cycle when there was indeed nothing going on)

HUGE thanks to everyone for their prayers and good wishes.  The support of my friends (real-life and cyber) has been a true gift. 

Now I realize that I cashed in most of your prayers already, but please keep a few coming in hopes that my levels rise as they need to.

Whoa...is this real???


  1. Oh My gosh Oh my gosh Oh my gosh!!! i was just thinking to myself today that there has got to a BFP coming soon here in cyberspace. I am rather new to blogging, but have been waiting for a BFP since I started. I am THRILLED to hear your Great News today!

    I think I would be in shock/numb too. Give it time, it will soak in and become very real very soon!

    Congratulations!!! xoxoxoxoxox

    So in hindsight are you glad you waited for your beta?

  2. WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! Okay, I'll try not to get too excited and will just keep praying that those numbers go up! Okay, so that number is fantastic, isn't it? I'm so so so so happy for you! ;)

  3. (tears). I am so happy for you Tracey!! Thats fantastic news.

  4. Doing a happy dance in Buffalo for you!!! I'm so excited for you and Russ! I don't know exactly what the "numbers" mean....but i'll keep doing my "numbers" thing so we get a little Johnson running around! Yeah!

  5. Oh, yay, yay, yay! I'm sooooooo happy for you!!!! I think we are EXACTLY the same dpo -- 19 today, right? SO FRICKIN' COOL. Keeping my fingers crossed that your beta rises and that, come August/September, we're both holding our little miracles in our arms.


  6. Congratulations!!! I'm so happy for you!

  7. Yay!!! Congrats! What a great way to go into the new year.

    I am praying for rising betas for you!

    Over the moon happy for you!!!

  8. YES!!! I just knew it was going to work. This cycle was just too amazing not to. I am so excited for you!! You deserve it. And what a great number!

  9. Just catching up on your posts ... CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!