Thursday, December 31, 2009

This could be real

Beta #2 is in and I'm at 881!!!  That's about a 150% increase in 48 hours.  Wow.  This could be real.  Now I go back Monday for another check and then they'll tell me when the first ultrasound will be.  My guess is that it'll be late next week or early the week after.

I'm still not super excited, though I think it is starting to sink in a little bit.  It occurred to me this morning that there will eventually be some discussion over the gender of this baby.  It's so funny how every time I've ever heard someone say "We don't care if it's a boy or girl, only that it's healthy", I've always thought they were full of crap and just didn't want to take sides or upset their spouse.  I truly don't care even a little about that and it has hardly crossed my mind that either is an option, probably because it's barely crossed my mind that this is happening.

I feel really good today.  A little heartburn, but not bad.

So it's New Year's Eve and I feel I should reflect.  It's very hard for me to reflect on 2009.  Three days ago I would have said that 2009 was the worst year of my life.  Now i can't possibly say that.  So I'm not sure how I feel about 2009...it's brought me the greatest joy and pain so I guess i can't complain too badly...Happy New Year everyone!!!

5 comments:

  1. I have been praying all day long and am so glad to read this post! I understand why you are still hesitant to jump for joy, though. But isn't it interesting that you didn't "feel" it this round as much as before and yet it's positive? Guess what, Trace-- YOU'RE PREGNANT! ;) Now I can't wait to see if it is with just 1!

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  2. Congrats my fellow Buffalonian!!!!
    I thought about you yesterday and was super excited to read you were getting your 2nd beta while replying to one of my posts.

    This whole being pregnant will become more real...it's like a new relationship, the longer they stick around, the more me realize they aren't going anywhere. Enjoy this time as much as you can because the next 8 months are going to fly by!!!

    Thank you for your kind words and inspiration. You are proof wishes come true.

    Happy New Year sweet pea!!!

    Kim

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  3. What a beautiful doubling beta! You must be over the moon! I know what you mean about 2009 ... definitely the most painful and most joyful year I've ever experienced, too.

    Can't wait to hear about your 1st U/S!!!

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  4. Thank you, sweet girl, for your comment on my blog. It helped me more than you'll ever know.

    Oh, and congrats on your AWESOME beta! I'm thinking there may be two in there -- what do you think? Either way, so so excited to share this journey with you.

    Sending lots of bloggy love your way.

    Hugs,
    Jo

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