It sure feels good...

So we leave tomorrow for Buffalo where we will spend the week at my parents house, which is the house that I grew up in.  I'm excited to see family and friends, especially now that I've found Christmas spirit!  Today Dr. Oz was talking about how progesterone is like Valium and is the soothing hormone.  Is he ever right!  I sure feel soothed.  In fact I wish I could feel like this all the time.  This is by far the easiest 2ww I've had.  I don't know if it's because it's #5 or because it's Christmas or what but I like it!  I'm all happy and just in the best mood ever!

So my beta is scheduled for 12/28.  We're still supposed to be away and are actually driving home that day.  I think I've decided to move the beta to the 29th.  I know.  I could find out one day earlier.  Am I crazy?  I just have to say that I'm enjoying the possibility of being pregnant so much that I I don't mind waiting.  Prolonging the bad news is just fine with me.  And if it happens to be good, then my numbers will be even higher.   We could cut the trip short but I feel like I've barely seen my family in so long because I'm always having to come home for IVF stuff.

And I have a secret.

My nurse told me I should do a home test!  Now I am completely against HPTs for those of us IVFers.  I just think it feeds into the mind games we're already playing.  If it come back negative, we're crushed but still hold out hope.  If it comes back positive, we're excited but are sure it's wrong until we get the blood test and the call from our nurse.  I just think it's a bad idea any way you look at it.  But since my nurse kinda told me to do one on the 28th, what can it hurt?  NO!  I can't.  And Russ says no way too.  AND there's no way I'm telling my mom about this option.  But wouldn't it feel so good to pee on a stick and get the lines???  I'd feel so normal!  I don't think I'm going to do it, but who knows how I'll feel in a week.  Right now I'm just going to wallow in the bliss of hope that I have!  It sure feels good...